{Insєят Chєєsy Lovє Quotє Hєяє} ♥

TWLOHA;♥
Two sets in one day?
WHOOO!!!
Yay for meee (:
I know i said i was going to sleep.
HA. Jokes.
So... On a more serious note.
I said this on my new showcase,
I want to come clean with yall,
I self harm.
It's not good, i should stop, i know.
I've heard all of these things before.
And i am recovering. (:
Every day is a battle in my head, though.
And not every one i know, knows of this battle.
I actually know people who would get mad
or be ashamed really, of me, if they knew.
Most of the people who disagree with what I've done to myself say that its for attention.
That's what people don't get.
I don't cut for attention.
I want to make that clear.
I cut to control my pain.
I've been through physical
And emotional pain my ENTIRE life.
I haven't ever been able to control my pain.
With cutting, i feel like i can actually control some of this pain.
I know, its the wrong way to control pain...
But that was my way of coping.
I'm recovering from this on going war now.
But i will always be a cutter.
No matter how long i go without cutting,
I will always have the struggle.
And i will always be a cutter.
I tried to kill myself on October 30th of 2012.
I was ready to end it.
I never wanted it to be that bad.
But it got to that point.
The 31rst i was admitted to a mental hospital.
I stayed there for a week and a day.
I honestly got no better while i was there.
I put on a straight face the whole time.
I JUST wanted to go home.
I got home, and i was back to my old ways.
I honestly was still secretly cutting at the hospital.
I finally had to decide that enough was enough.
I decided my cutting HAD to stop.
My self harm had gotten to be too much.
It was all i ever thought about.
I was clean at one point for four weeks.
But then, i caved.
I was fighting with myself.
I decided that tomorrow was a new day.
And it was.
A new day, a new clean slate.
That was 1 week, 2 days, and 14 days clean!!
I am SOO proud of myself.
And i dont want to go back to where i was before/.
So because of all that i have been through,
To write love on her arms means a lot to me.
I want to do the most i can to raise awareness of TWLOHA.
And i thought Polyvore was a great way to do that.
If you ever need someone to talk to, im here.
If you're going through this as well,
Stay Strong.
I know you can do this.
PM me!!!
I love you all. ♥
- .Carson.♥

I'm kinda sorta really loving this set.
Sorry if its kinda obnoxious, :D
So, if you actually still read these, THANKYOU.
You are amazing.
You guys, i think im going to start writing again.
Would you be interested in hearing my story?
Or no?
Its 11:44 pm.
And im super duper bored.
Im watching the youtube.
Which always keeps me interested. :D
OOOOH!
And i got a tablet recently,
(Which is getting on my nerves because it dosent work right!!!!! )":)
and i think im going to sell it to get a kindle. (:
So any good books, recomend them please!!!!
I thought id tell you guys,
I FINALLY GOT MY FIRST KISS!!!
But there's a catch.
He's gay.
I know.
You're confused.
I am too.
He says he really did want to kiss me.
I dunno though..
This is the biggest mind game ive ever had to deal with.
i dont know what to think.
Oh well.
I think im done with this for now.
Im getting sleeppyy(:
So Goodnight!!!
(:
iLoveYou. ♥

So there are 6 sleeps until Christmas!!! :O
Im pumped, man.
I just went shopping yesterday for presents!
Got most of my shopping done,
only ones i need are for my best friend, sister, and grandparents!
Im so glad too.
When i got home, i wrapped all of the presents.
And then we finally decorated the Christmas tree.
Im listening to Christmas music because im that cool.
I just love being in the spirit of Christmas. (:
So now i guess ill do a Christmas tag!
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1.Peppermint Mocha or Frappe from Starbucks?
*Peppermint Mocha, DUHDURR.
2.Snuggie or fuzzy blanket?
*Snuggie. (;
3.What do you really enjoy about winter?
*The real meaning behind Christmas. ♥
4.How The Grinch Stole Christmas or Home Alone?
*The Grinch! Its my favorite Christmas movie!
5.Would you rather put up the decorations or have someone else put them up?
*Put them up myself(:
6.White Christmas tree or Green Christmas tree?
*White! But ive never had one. /:
7.Candy cane or sucker?
*Candy cane!
8.Snow or sunny?
*Snow!!!! ❄
9.What's one thing you do every winter that you love?
*Look at Christmas lights! (:
10.Winter tags or makeup tutorials?
*(Youtube Question.) Winter tag.
11.Holiday scents or regular scents?
*Holiday Scents. I like to smell like a "walking holiday!" If you know what tv show that reference came from, brownie points to you!!!
12.Scarf or mittens?
*Neither. I like knit hats the best(:
13.Boots or moccasins?
*Boots! Any kind of boots.
14. Does it snow where you live? If so, do you like it?
*Not telling you. And no, i hate it.
15. Do you or have you been ice skating?
*No. Never been. My ankles would be WAY to weak for that.
16. Favorite Christmas movie?
*Answer is ^^^^^ up there. How The Grinch Stole Christmas! ♥
17. Favorite winter drink?
*Egg nog!!!
18. Do you believe in Santa?
*Yeah, no.
19. Have you ever made a snowman/snow angel?
*Yes, both. i love snow. Very rarley do we get snow where i live but when we do, i love it,
20. Do you have any special family traditions?
*Yes! We do the same thing every Christmas. Christmas Eve we go to my grandparents, my grandma gives us a new ornament and our new pjs. We have Christmas Eve dinner. THEN, we go home, and sleep. We wake up in the morning, open our presets at home. Then we go to my grandparents again, we open presents, chill with the family, then we eat. Then we go to whoever elses house we need to go to.(:
21. When do you start decorating for Christmas?
*Like a week till Christmas./: Procrastinator!
22. Favorite Christmas song?
*There are way too many. Im really loving
Christmas In Heaven by Scotty McCreery this year, though. (:
23. Will you be under the mistletoe this year?
*I dunno. Probably not. FOREVER ALONE. :"(
24. What are some of the things you want for Christmas this year?
*Oh gosh. A camera, a kindle, converses. i dunno what else.
25. What's your most expensive item on your wish list?
*Camera, i think.
26. What is one thing you don't like about this holiday?
*I guess that it'll be way different..
27. Do you go all out for Christmas decorations?
*Nope. Not really. Kinda at my grandparents, but not really at home.
28. When do you take down your Christmas decorations?
*Like three weeks after Christmas. :D
29. How many people did you buy gifts for this year?
*Ten. (:
30. Do you travel on Christmas break?
*Used to. We used to go to the mountains EVERY year. We dont have the money to do that anymore though.
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So happy and excited for Christmas. ♥
I love yall!
Go follow me on twitter or instagram, or both.
@carsonmkayle (:
Talk to yall later!!!!

Super man means a lot to me now... long story.
 
Tag time! {Gotten off of Youtube}
 
Questions!❄
1.) Favorite Winter Nail Polish? Any maroon or deep red color.
2.) Favorite Winter lip product? A perfect day by Mac. But i love that lipstick no matter if its winter or not.
3.) Most worn Winter clothing piece? Carhartts!
4) Most worn Winter accessory? Knit beanies or scarfs!
5) Favorite winter scent/candle? Cinnamon and Nutmeg, pepermint, anything that smells anything like Christmas. (:
6) Favorite Winter beverage? Egg nog, or coffee with seasonal creamer!
7) All time favorite Christmas/Holiday movie? How The Grinch Stole Christmas.
8) Favorite Christmas/Holiday song? Baby It's Cold Outside or Hard Candy Christmas.
9) Favorite Holiday food/treat? Fudge? I guess. I dunno really.
10) What is your favorite Christmas Decoration this year? Christmas tree! Duh! or the lights on my wall in my room(:
11) What's at the top of your Christmas list? Happiness. Or a Boyfriend.
12) What are your plans for the holidays this year? The same as they always are. wake up, open presents. Get dressed. Go to church. Go to my grandparents. Spend all day there. Have Christmas dinner. Open Presents. SLEEEPPP. (:
 
Okay, so im spending the night with my grandparents right?
They made me get off the phone at ten! /:
Zach's aunt was in the room so he didn't say he loved me...)":
Ill talk to him tomorrow i guess....
My grandpa is having a cow to get on the puter so i guess ill go.
I love you guys so much!
Go follow me on twitter or instagram, or both.
@carsonmkayle
Goodnight. ♥♥♥♥
PS. The title is a song that im obsessed with! {A Thousand Years - Christina Perri} (:

This set is wayyyy too crowded.
It is bad compared to my last one.
I think i shall do a surveyyy! (:
That is, if i can find one!
Kay, well i cant find one.
so ill give you a poem i found insted(:
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Lollipops turn into cigar.ettes.
The innocent ones turn into slu.ts.
Homework goes in the trash.
Mobile phones are being used in class.
Detention becomes suspension.
Soda becomes vod.ka.
Bikes become cars.
Kisses turn into s.ex.
Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?
When protection meant wearing a helmet?
When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?
Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero?
Your worst enemies were your siblings.
Race issues were about who ran the fastest.
War was only a card game.
And the only drug you knew was cough medicine.
When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a sl.ut.
The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?
.....And we couldn’t wait to grow up"
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Okay end of that.
Im about to go show shopping with the grandparents!
Then we'll go out to eat! (:
So i love you guys, im gonna go!
If you actually read this,
Follow me on Instagram or Twitter @carsonmkayle !! (:
Bye loves! ♥

So, this is exactly fifty items.
And it still sucks.
I gotta get this together man!
Fall sets are always my best but,
This year my sets arent making me happy.
I just got home from the doctors and im bored.
They did blood work and all.
I feel terrible.
Im hungry and sleepy.
And yeah.
I think im gonna do a survey.
Havent done one of them in a while.
This is one from an old set , actually...
Hereee we go.
 

 

So i did actually do the survey.
Swear i did.
BUT!
It kept saying,
"Your bad word made polybot cry! :"( "
So i just gave up and erased it all...
I didnt even say a bad word.
Ah well.
I dont even care.
It took up time, which is pretty much all i was doing it for anyway.
K.
Imma go now.
I love you.
Bye.

It's been such a long time since i made a set.
This isnt the best one, but it's okay.
I gotta get back into the swing of things.
First fall set, though!
I'm so excited for fall.
I missed the first official day of it.
I was in the hospital, unfortunatly.
I still feel terrible, but im home!
Hopefully i can get back to making sets.
But then again, its my freshman year.
And its been a little busy.
Little brother is gonna be here in a few months!
I'm still not sure how i like it.
I know that ill love him when he gets here.
I mean, he's my brother....
But, everything will be so different.
I don't like changes.
And this will be a HUGE one.
Elizabeth, my sister, her boyfriend is gone.
Well not gone, but he is at basic training.
For the national gaurd, you know?
She has had her good days and her bad.
She's strong though, so i know she'll be fine.
I guess that's about it..
I've kinda updated everything there is to update.
I'll try to start making time for polyvore again!
Pm me, Comment, Like?
Faith ; Trust ; And Pixie Dust.
(I may start a new one of those ^^^)
Any ideas?
ILoveYou. <3
Cya! (
 
:-{Cαяsσи}+&ρєтєя ραи♥

Yes i know my set is not finished.
I clipped it and tried to work on it but it was fuzzy.
I hate this.
My life sucks right now so i decided i'm going to be hipster.
And i need to get off the computer.
Right now, i'm depressed.
And crying.
So please pray for me.
Pm me, Comment, Like?
Faith ; Trust ; And Pixie Dust.

See ya.

I love you.

-{Cαяsσи}+&ρєтєя ραи♥

So i typed this all up... And then it dissapeared... D:
Whatever.
Preetty much all i said was i'm headed to the Spring Festival.
Hence, this set. (:
I had a lot typed out but i'm too lazy to re-type it.
Pm me, Comment, Like?
Faith ; Trust ; And Pixie Dust.
 
Hollllaaaa. (;
 
I love youuuuuuuu!!!!! <3
 
-{Cαяsσи}+&ρєтєя ραи♥

{Before i start, if you're reading this, Pm me. I'm missing having Polyvore friends. }
 
Yall, My Mommy Is Pregnant!!!!!! <3
I'm so excited!
I'm going to be a big sister AND a little sister!
I'm gonna be sharing my room with the baby. (:
We just found out mommy was pregnant today.
And this was really unexpected so no she hadn't been trying.
Even tho this baby was unexpected, it's deff not a mistake.
You have no idea how long i've wanted a younger sibling tho!
I've been asking for mama to have one for forever.
I'm so glad she finally is going to.
So, i was doing homebound today,
(i'm on homebound because i have tummy problems)
And mama came in there and was like,
":Sorry to inturupt, BUT, i just thought i should tell you, I'm pregnant!"
Dude. At first i thought it was a joke.
Then when i found out it wasn't, i was excited.
I was so happy that i cried.
Literaly.
No Joke.
I really did cry.
I am beyond excited to have a new baby brother or sister.
There is one bad thing about this tho.
I won't be the baby anymore.
Well, i guess two.
Mommy won't be spending as much time with me alone anymore.
The baby will ALWAYS be around.
Thats a good thing too i guess tho.
I was really upset about that earlier.
I kind of had a bipoalar breakdown.
I got really really upset and started crying because i was sad.
Then i was crying because i was happy and excited.
I honestly couldn't make up my mind which one i was.
I'm starting to get over that tho.
I'm back to being really excited again. (:
But yeah, i'm going now.
If you have something mean to say then shut up and don't comment.
God sent my family a blessing and i couldn't be happier about it.
Pm me, Comment, Like?
Faith ; Trust ; And Pixie Dust.

Talk to yall Later.! (:

I love youuuuuuuu!!!!! <3

-{Cαяsσи}+&ρєтєя ραи♥